i think it is very hard to live with the uncertainty that we are faced with – my dad had a resection and they now have found some enlarged lymph nodes – they think it is due to infection but they don’t know, i think he will have some more tests. before the op my dad was told that he had a 50% chance of being cured and a 50% chance that the cancer could come back 2-3 yrs down the line. The surgeon told us that he had just discharged a patient from his ‘books’ who was 10 yrs post op after this kind of surgery! – i think they just don’t know what the chances are. it is very hard to live with though. you want to hear that you are cancer free and that is the end of it, in truth i know that that is not the reality, however i hold onto the fact that advances in tackling cancer have meant that patients can live with this dreadful disease for years, that it can be managed and controlled like a chronic disease eg diabetes. i think we have to just try to make the most of the time we have, but it is hard i know. right now i feel a mixture of emotions, i’m scared and angry at this illness. I want my dad to fight it and win.