george been mostly sleeping since saturday,he just dosnt look good,hes only awake for a few minutes at a time,he said he wants to stop chemo because its making him hurt in his belly,he says it feels like pressure.I said only you can make that choice.his lips turned white,i think its because he really dosnt drink anything like he use to,only sips every couple hrs.this is so so hard i feel like im
going crazy,i want to punch something,i want to scream,i want to ,i dont know i feel so alone,but i know im not,i know you all are here,im afraid to drive anywhere because im always in a fog,by for now,love and hugs lynn