Anyone with the disease have small kids (under 12?)

thanks to all, and yes I have wonderful support. It’s the every day stuff, like, GETTING HIM UP IN THE MORNING!!!! Yes, he does know what is going on, at least as much as a 10 year old can I guess. He is one of the reasons I am having such a hard time dealing with the disease, not for the way he acts but for all the terrible things that have been done to him. You see, I adopted him at age 5 from Guatemala after a pretty horrendous existence. As a result of abuse, genetics, whatever he is bipolar, severe abandonment issues, ptsd, you name it, but despite it all he is one of the sweetest little boys you could ever meet. So now I am grappling with God and why he would do something like this to a little boy?
What we are trying to do is keep as normal as possible, I need it, he needs it. He needs his mom to yell at him when he doesn’t behave, I need to yell at him when he doesn’t behave, we need life to be normal as long as we can.
One of the really “aggravating” things about this disease is that I feel like Damacles’ sword is dangling over my head, I want desperately to beat this thing but sometimes I wonder if I have the strength! Of course, I used to say that even before I had cancer!