Lola….First and foremost it’s importance to validate your feelings of grief. Once death is on the horizon, it is natural that we begin to grieve. Our bodies are often in a state of hyper-alertness, which in turn can become mentally and physically exhausting. Know that your feelings are real, normal and that it takes an emotional toll on you. You are doing everything right by exercising and connecting with friends, but sometimes we need to take this a step further and see if grief counseling can help us through this very difficult time.
I recall feeling confused about the sense of relief when death eventually came for my husband. I wondered whether feeling guilty diminished my love for him, but later understood that relief did not change the deep love I had for him and that my feelings were a natural reaction to the illness.
You will shake off this deep depression, dear Lola, but it takes time and is so very individual. I have heard of people setting aside a particular time of day in where they gave in to the feelings of grief and let it all out. Once this allotted time passed they tried hard to concentrate on the rest of the day. Not sure it works for you, but it may be worth a try.
Is the physician who prescribed the medication in contact with you? Perhaps it needs to be evaluated and changed to another drug?
My mom’s been in a hospice center for the last two weeks. I was wish her during the holidays and we said our good-byes. It won’t be long now. She’s on a lot of dilaudid and methadone for the pain. I know that’s the last time I’ll see her alive.
I cannot shake this deep depression off inside me for the life of me. I have to get rid of it! Any ideas? I started hot yoga, eating well, reaching out to friends and family. What else can I do?? It’s paralyzing me. I’m crying all the time and I just want to sleep all day. I hate it. I’m on psych meds already.