February 28, 2010 at 5:38 pm #35854devoncatParticipant
I am just so nervous. There are only 3 ways this surgery can go. Good, bad, dead. Hans and I have talked about it and we know that this surgery is our only hope and we are so greedy for more time together. But if they open me up and then decide they cant do anything, we know that it is a death sentence. We had this conversation if it would be better for me to die on the table or wake up knowing that they couldnt do anything and have a longer, slower, more painful death. We agreed that although that isnt so exciting an offer, it was much better than dying on the table. When I said we are greedy for more time, I mean that. Any time together is good at this point.
Anyway, it is still 3 weeks away. I havent been able to see my pyschologist because she has been very sick this past month. So we are planning for the worst, praying for the best and trying to live life to the fullest until then. It is all very tiring and I am getting the worst stress headaches that leave me feeling sick to my stomach and stuck in bed in the dark. Wah, wah wah I will stop whining now.
Thanks again for all of your kind words and encouragement.
KrisFebruary 28, 2010 at 4:28 pm #35853lisaParticipant
I wish we could all get together and have one group hug.
Kris, we are all loving you and rooting for you. Think of us as a bunch of cheerleaders going rah, rah, rah!February 28, 2010 at 4:12 am #35852mlodgeParticipant
You have been an inspiration to me. I love reading your posts! Your courage helps me keep my chin up during my own battles. This is just one more battle before you win the war
All the best,
MelFebruary 24, 2010 at 11:07 am #35851marylloydParticipant
If anyone can beat this cancer you can!! Great news that they will do surgery! I hope you continue to get good news on Thurs and plans can move forward. Take care of yourself and remember we are all thinking of you and wishing you the best!! MaryFebruary 24, 2010 at 3:25 am #35850mlepp0416Participant
Go with God and KICK THAT cancer!!!
God bless and prayers coming your way from Wisconsin
MargaretFebruary 24, 2010 at 1:24 am #35849kathybMember
I can already tell you are an inspiration to many, and many will be praying for you.
KathyFebruary 23, 2010 at 9:42 pm #35848hollandgMember
Good luck……your in our thoughts and prayers.February 23, 2010 at 1:44 am #35847daddysgirl-2Member
Lots of good thoughts and prayers, for you and Hans, your family and the doctors, Kris.
JoleneFebruary 23, 2010 at 12:33 am #35846lainyParticipant
Hi Kris, perhaps it took longer to line up the BEST! Boy, oh boy, I am so excited for you and am hurting my eyes squeezing the prayers and good thoughts out your way.February 23, 2010 at 12:11 am #35845cherbourgParticipant
Old Leroy must be shakin’ in his boots!
Seriously, tons of best wishes and hugs are coming your way. I know you are strong enough to handle anything and you have a wonderful man with you every step of the way. Now go forth and conquer!!!!
PamFebruary 22, 2010 at 8:54 pm #35844gavinModerator
I am keeping my fingers crossed for you for Thursday.
March 22 is a good day. That is my mums birthday and not only that, my little cousin is due to give birth to her first child on the 22nd so I hope that this will also be a great day for you.
Tons and tons of positive thoughts coming over the north sea heading your way.
Best wishes and lots of hugs,
GavinFebruary 22, 2010 at 5:50 pm #35843marionsModerator
Oh Kris….the old waiting game. I don’t believe that another four weeks (from the original proposed date) will make too much of a difference in regards to the cancer. The emotional burden however, is something I much relate to. Kris, you have so many wellwishers loaded with positive energy coming your way, it could move a mountain.
Namaste, as Peter would say.
Hugs coming your way,
MarionFebruary 22, 2010 at 4:51 pm #3219devoncatParticipant
March 22 (or 23). Final decision will be on Thursday. I am REALLY annoyed that it has taken almost 2 months to get everyones schedule clear and the date set. It is such an emotional burden to know that this is a very high risk surgery, it gets riskier the longer they wait and there is nothing I can do about it. Sometimes I wonder how strong one has to be.
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