Fear of recurrence

Yes, fear is a real part of it, the reality of a possible recurrence is with all of us, mostly early on, and time helps fear become courage and how we deal with it is very important, don’t obsess, even distract yourself away from dwelling on thoughts of the bad news nobody wants.Scan time puts it in your lap again and waiting for results is tough (my last two scans the radiologist was right there during the scan, and both times it was the same tech and she was nice enough to tell me the good news and not make me sweat the wait.) Even with close to twelve years of survival I think about it, I read the stories here and it is there in your face however it might not ever return and I think about wanting to see New Zealand or Ireland or some far away destination to go to and experience the people and bam you are not thinking about this darn chimp on your back. That is one way, some need medication the thoughts upset them so much, it is hard to remain positive but we must . I have had many blessings since diagnosis, too many to list, and that is all I need to think about if I start to have an internal pity party for myself, all my blessings… remain positive, Pat