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  • #21045
    devoncat
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    So, it has been almost 3 weeks since my scan. My doctor is on vacation and he asked a fellow doctor to look at the scans. The radiologist said when I was scanned that it would take 7 to 10 days. We finally got throught to the secretary yesterday to ask why we hadnt heard anything from the doctor.
    Well, apparently the fill-in doctor decided I need a meeting with my normal doctor to get the results. My normal doctor doesnt come back until monday so I wont have the results for most likely another week. But lets not kid ourselves, good news could have been given over the phone. Having to wait for a meeting tells me all I need to know. It is cruel. I dont have real information, but just enough to put me into depression. Do these doctors not learn about emotional needs of patients in medical school?

    I am so scared, so frustrated and I feel so alone. I have tried to talk to both my parents and my husband but they are in positive mood. That might be good for them, but it makes everything more lonely. I need to talk about how I feel, what are my worries, what will this mean. I am scared. They just want to wait for the doctor to give the news. HELLO. I have been in pain for 2 months and I cant get results until the doctor comes back. What do they think this means?? My scan was so good he needs to call me in to praise me for holding my breath good for the scanner? I dont care that THEY want to wait, I am scared and lonely NOW. I want to shake them and say “STOP BEING POSITIVE AND LISTEN TO ME. I AM SCARED AND I NEED TO BE HEARD”

    I am so angry at the fill in doctor and I am angry with life. I look around me and can find at least 2 dozen people who deserve cancer more than me. I want to wake up in the morning and NOT feel my body or its pains. I want to plan a life. I want to scream. I want to hit out. I want to go out and get drunk like I did when I was 21. I want to be Kris again, not some scared woman. This sucks. I have so much anger in me that out of nowhere I just angrily said “Fcuk” while sitting watching tv. Where does that come from? Where does such anger fester that it needs to randomly come out when my mind is supposedly elsewhere? How did I become that?

    I think I have ranted enough.

    A couple of people have emailed me and I cant email back as hotmail is not working on my computer right now. Even my computer is sick.

    #21044
    scragots
    Member

    Kris,

    I might have missed a post somewhere, but I was thinking about you and wondering about the results of your scan. Did they figure out where they pains were coming from? Thinking good thoughts.

    Sue

    #21043
    karen
    Participant

    Kris,
    Try to keep positive and not dwell. Enjoy your berry picking and the wonderful feeling being in the great outdoors. Prayers….
    Karen

    #21042
    marylloyd
    Participant

    Kris,
    Good thoughts and prayers coming your way. Enjoy your weekend as much as possible. There must be something to this berry picking. My husband likes to do it too. Even when he was really sick 2 years ago he managed to do it. Of course then he wanted a pie!! Take care and best wishes. We all have our fingers crossed that it is nothing more than constipation!! Mary

    #21041
    devoncat
    Participant
    bbfranson wrote:
    So, I’m voting that kris is just constipated, and that an enema is going to fix all this. All in favor, aye!
    Love ya, kris. We’re all rooting for you!

    brenda

    Dont make me laugh, it hurts. :)

    I just got the letter and I will be having a ct next friday. So with the weekend, I will not have news for at least 10 days. Stress, stress, and more stress. If the pain gets much worse, I think I might head to the gp for something stronger. But now off to southern sweden I go to a little cottage in the middle of nowhere. I just picked a liter of cherries for the trip and am bringing a bucket for all the wild berries. I am even being so daring as to pack a swimsuit and possiblywear it in front of people I know. So everyone have a good weekend. And I do appreciate all the thoughts and prayers. I think I need them.

    #21040
    tiapatty
    Member

    Aye! I am praying for constipation!

    Patty

    #21039
    bbfranson
    Participant

    So, I’m voting that kris is just constipated, and that an enema is going to fix all this. All in favor, aye!
    Love ya, kris. We’re all rooting for you!

    brenda

    #21038
    debrah
    Participant

    oh kris, so sorry for what you are going through. I think we all understand the fear that you are experiencing. I am definately going to keep you in my prayers. I am no expert on this like I should be but wouldn’t your blood work of shown elevated #’s if the cc was back? I know when I get a ct scan I always have bloodwork the same day. Maybe a cyst that your gyn didn’t detect? I understand they are very painful. I feel such sympathy for you b/c ‘been there done that’.. have a glass of wine (if ok) and get away from it all. Wishing you peace and good new! deb

    #21037
    jclegg
    Member

    Kris,
    I am praying for you – I hope the weekend away will help. Many good trhouhts your way.

    Joyce

    #21036
    carol58
    Participant

    Hey Kris, TRY not to worry. That’s so easy to say, isn’t it? Lots of positive thoughts and prayers for you from North Carolina. Let us know as soon as you find out.

    Carol

    #21035
    chrissy23
    Participant

    Kris,

    Relax and take it easy. It is always easier to have a good time away from home! So good job on the weekend away! I will definitely be praying for you. Did they not do a ct in the emergency room. That is strange. Like Sue said…… It could be sooo many things. No sense in worrying just yet. Wishing you the best.

    Christina

    #21034
    lainy
    Participant

    Hi Kris: I have crossed my eye, arms, legs and everything in-between in wishing you a good report! Stay strong and enjoy your holiday!!!

    #21033
    jeffg
    Member

    Kris…. Gooooooooooooooooood thoughts across the ocean and straight to you. Take your meditation up a notch or two girl and try reducing your anxiety and fear. You can do it Kris! Your stronger than you give yourself credit for.
    Bless Ya!
    Jeff G.

    #21032
    scragots
    Member

    Kris,

    I will certainly be thinking about you! It could be so many things, try not to worry. And I think sometimes it’s actually a good thing to have a different pair of eyes looking at your scans. Then your doc will look at them when he/she gets back to verify. I will keep all my fingers and toes crossed that it is something simple and non-threatening and I will also send up a bunch of prayers. Tell Hans I said to take you somewhere fun, and make you laugh this weekend! Let us know as soon as you find out anything.

    Take care,
    Sue

    #1385
    devoncat
    Participant

    I am having some pains in my lower abdomen which resulted in an emergency room visit when my gp thought I had appendicitis and then off to the gynocologist because they then thought it was a problem with my ovary. the gyneocologist found nothing and wanted me to wait to see if the pain went away. It hasnt and my doctor in charge has ordered a new ct scan for the pelvic area. I just found out this area hasnt been scanned before. I am very nervous. And to make it worse, my lovely doctor is going away on vacation and a new doctor will look at my scans. I am so scared. I have been praying up a storm! So, if you can, send me some good thoughts, positive energy and prayers (if you pray).

    I am in a state of shock and am quite weepy at times (half from the pain, half from the fear). We are going away for the weekend and hopefully I can relax.

    Good thoughts please.

    Kris

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