April 1, 2013 at 10:46 pm #70341
Clare, you need to be alert and look for your Sister in other ways. I had always told Teddy if I went first I would touch his cheek like the flutter of a Butterfly and he should give me the same signal as well. OK so I was controlling him even after life! LOL I can be sitting at the computer, at a movie or restaurtant and all of a sudden I feel this light sensation like an Eskimo kiss and it is always on the forehead or the top of my head. Sometimes it goes on forever and sometimes just for a few seconds. Look for anything in electricity like lights going off or TV going louder/softer. Look for music she loved to come on a radio and pennies like Lynn got. BTW Lynn you should tell George if he’s sending money make it 100.00 bills! I LOVE our BELIEVE Club, yes I do!April 1, 2013 at 10:17 pm #70340
thats ok Clarem,hope your doing well…April 1, 2013 at 10:10 pm #70339claremSpectator
I’m just saddened that I can’t post good updates on how my sister is doing and that it came to this from nothing so quickly.
Sorry to hijack your thread Lynn. I meant to say in my original reply that I love the penny! I had wanted to agree a ‘sign’ with my sister so that I would know it was her visiting but her decline was just too rapid and the opportunity to ask her never happened.April 1, 2013 at 8:45 pm #70338
Dear Clare, many thanks. I find I can express exactly what I am feeling in a poem and it is very cathartic. BTW, I am so very happy that you are hangin in here with us. I felt that was very cathartic as well. I don’t think I could have gone through this last 7 years with this site and now I am addicted to it. Just think of all the friends we have made from all over the world! Amazing.April 1, 2013 at 8:30 pm #70337claremSpectator
Beautiful Lainy.XMarch 31, 2013 at 10:22 am #70336mcwgoatSpectator
That is a beautiful poem!
MaryMarch 31, 2013 at 10:03 am #70335marionsModerator
Lynn…The first of everything, especially the Holidays are difficult for us, but things ease a bit in the time to come. I wish for a peaceful day with George and for your heart to continue to heal – one day at a time.
MarionMarch 31, 2013 at 1:54 am #70334
GOSH! Lynn you are something else. YEA! What a story. Makes me happy that you understand the concept that if the boys are around us and we see things like that it brings us so much comfort! Absolutely I would add that penny to the necklace!March 31, 2013 at 12:51 am #70333
oh Lainy,that is beautiful.i forgot to tell you all about the penny,i was sitting at georges computer resizing pictures of him for a neckless im making,and from out of nowhere a penny falls onto my leg.i am going to put that penny in the neckless..love you all lynnMarch 31, 2013 at 12:32 am #70332
Dear Lynn, just to see your post tells me you are trying and doing a pretty good job at it. We both know that WAS George catching some rays of sun with you. If you don’t mind I would like to send you this poem I wrote about 5 months after Teddy passed. Oh and I just know how proud of you George is!
How Are You Doing?
Everyone asks me how I’m doing since you went away,
With a smile on my face I answer, “I really am okay”.
Matter of fact its very hard but I promised to be strong,
Until the time we meet again, in your arms where I belong.
In the morning when I wake, once where there was warmth all night,
There’s nothing but an empty space and a pillow to hold tight.
Our closet now holds all my clothes it still looks kind of strange,
I try to make it look like more and constantly rearrange.
When I’m in the kitchen and working at the sink,
Many times I stop and this is what I think…..
If Teddy was here he’d grab me to give a little cue,
That he was about to hug me and say his, “I love you”.
No more are the corny jokes that grew longer by the year,
What I wouldn’t give now for just once more, to hear.
When someone calls, your message is still kept on the phone,
That way no one knows I am really home alone.
When day is over and dinner is eaten by one,
No more thank you-s for the meal well done.
Can’t find anyone to cream or scratch my back
There’s just a big hole here, a hole of midnight black.
But, how am I doing? I’m doing okay,
I know that you would want it that way.
And I know you are with me morning to night,
Still watching over me, that every things all right!March 31, 2013 at 12:23 am #8167
just want to let everybody know i am ok,trying to keep busy,my daughter to me to clearwater beach last weekend,for 3 days,so relaxing,but chilly,i was sitting poolside watching the dolphins playing,and i swear for a split second i saw my george sitting in the chair in front of me,a very comforting feeling,george and i use to go to the same beach every saturday, 6 years ago.sure do miss him,the hurt is so hard to bear sometimes.its still hard to breath without it hurting,sometimes i think im ok,then bam,reality,my heart starts racing,i cry uncontrolable,i think im going to spend the day tomorrow with my george at his grave,i know hes not there,i just feel the need to be there.sorry im rambling on,by for now,love ya all,lynn
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