Terry,
The depth of your grief is a testament to the great love you had for Wayne and your Mom.
Grieving is so hard and there is no timetable. No two people will grieve in the same way. It’s a process and you have to just work your way through.
The holidays make it harder. I lost my Mom to CC in April of 2009 and I’m still blindsided by my grief at times. I still catch myself picking up the phone to call her when I’m excited about something. Or find myself getting teary eyed when someone passes me wearing her perfume.
You will never forget but eventually you will remember more of the good memories and the pain will subside a little.
You are doing everything right. I’ll keep you in my thoughts and prayers.
Hugs to all of us STILL on this journey….
Pam