I’m sorry Peanut. There is nothing I can say to make you feel better. I lost my mom too, on aug 29th. I feel your pain, just know that you are not alone and eventually if you allow yourself to heal you will survive, and it wont hurt as much. I miss my mom’s voice and her weird little quirks…you know the stuff that got on my nerves when she was alive. LOL Don’t worry peanut, she is happier then she has ever been, and she wants you to be happy too. Smile peanut your mom is watching over you more now then she ever could when she was here. I know it sucks and nothing makes you feel better, I’m so sorry. Hugs Elicia