Hya Jilly
To lose your mom is so hard to bear. I think all of us at some time in our lives know something is not quite right.
Alan told me this is how he felt when he first approached the doctor.
Your mom knew this and left you some letters and instructions to try and ease the grief for you and the family.
She loved you so much, that is why she did it. take heart from her thoughts of you.
We, on this site need everyone’s story to be told for each has its own process. Non appear to be the same, some with similar aspects but never in the same manner.
We as carer’s also process these things in a different manner.
It will only be from such a site as this where the reality hits home and that hopefully a cure in the future will come about.
love and light Alan’s mom