March 14, 2009 at 6:44 am #27205marionsModerator
Tess…..many others have expressed similar feelings of wanting to go on by leaving behind this disease. I am wishing for your heart to heal one day at a time and for joy to return to your life.
MarionMarch 14, 2009 at 1:19 am #27204
Thank you so much for the kind words & thoughts Ashlea, ljg, Darla, Barbara and Pam. I feel like this site is a bunch of old friends, that I have to periodically check in on, as your encouragment on this journey has been priceless. In a strange way, I also feel very distanced from cc right now…. as if it’s a class that I”ve been attending daily & I”m burned out on it, I’m sick of studying, researching, reading, learning, breathing, living this stuff everyday. And I was only a caretaker! I never felt that before this week, because every little concern was worth burning the midnight oil over, if it could bring new answers. With Dad’s death, I feel like the chapter on cc is closing & class is over. I don’t have anymore questions about cc…. & the greatest challenge/fear of this whole process, Dad’s death, has come to fruition. Perhaps this is a ‘normal’ response to the cancer and grief.
TessMarch 14, 2009 at 12:53 am #27203asher47Participant
I am so sorry for your loss. May you find some peace at this time. I see that you are feeling everything that is natural to feel at this time. my prayer is that you WILL find that time alone with your beloved dad when the time is right, you deserve that much. Know that you are loved.
Hugs through tears,
AshleaMarch 13, 2009 at 4:04 pm #27202ljgParticipant
I have been there and I know what it is that you are going through.
I am so sorry for your loss.
You are not alone, Tess. -ljgMarch 13, 2009 at 1:22 pm #27201darlaParticipant
I too will be thinking of you today & praying for strength for you to help you through this sad day. You will connect with your Dad again, & you are right, this can not be done among strangers. You will know when it is the right time & place. My thoughts & prayers are with you today.
Love & Hugs,
DarlaMarch 13, 2009 at 12:40 pm #27200roma35Member
I am thinking of you today, as I have been thinking of you since your dad passed. I will be with you in spirit today.
God Bless You
BarbaraMarch 13, 2009 at 12:32 pm #27199cherbourgParticipant
I know God will hold you close in his hands today. You will be strong today during the funeral and yes you will know exactly where the place is that you will connect with your Daddy. (You can always come and walk on the beach with me!)
You will be in my thoughts and prayers today.
In Love and with lots of hugs,
PamMarch 13, 2009 at 12:23 pm #27198
Dear Pam, Mary, Barbara, Valerie & Jeff, and Janet, thank’s so much for your kind words. Barbara, your words definitely helped us through Dad’s final days and Jeff was always there to answer the little-big important questions along the way, many extra hugs to you all for that. Dad’s funeral is just a couple of hours away, I feel so sick right now & angry. THis final celebration makes things so ‘official’ & even Dad hated this stuff. When it’s all over I really need to find a place to connect again with Dad, that can’t be done in the presence of hundreds of strangers.
TessMarch 13, 2009 at 10:22 am #27197magicParticipant
Hi Tess sorry about your dad I know the feeling of losing a father mine was an amazing man and I still miss him after 6 years JanetMarch 13, 2009 at 2:35 am #27196jeffgMember
Tess, Love ,prayers and support be with you and your family.
Valerie and JeffMarch 12, 2009 at 10:24 pm #27195roma35Member
You are an amazing person, and you have been an incredible support system to me on this journey. I can only imagine what a wonderful father Jack was, because he has raised such a kind, thoughtful, considerate daughter. Your father was absolutely taken too soon, the the only solace is that he was with his loved ones when he passed over, and he will never suffer another moment of pain with this horrible disease. I hope I can handle what comes my way with this disease with the same elegance and grace you have displayed.
Your little boy will always feel Grampas presence, because he lives on in you.
Take Care and God Bless
BarbaraMarch 12, 2009 at 10:23 pm #27194marylloydParticipant
I’m very sorry to hear that your Dad lost his battle. He is at peace now and you will have a guardian angel watching over you. He truly appreciated all that you did for him even though he couldn’t say it. You are a very special daughter and I know you tried very hard to do what was best for him. Take care of yourself and know that you are in our thoughts and prayers. Hugs to you and your family. MaryMarch 12, 2009 at 5:54 pm #27193cherbourgParticipant
My heart aches for you and your family. I know that your Daddy knew what a special daughter he raised. You have been a rock for your Daddy and family.
Please know that you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers and tears today.
Much love to you and yours…
PamMarch 12, 2009 at 3:33 pm #27192
Much love coming your way as well Gary and Elaine. It is so good to have our Myrtle Beach family here to celebrate Dad’s life – I thought of you this week and continue to wish you well. Thank you for your prayers.
TessMarch 12, 2009 at 3:19 pm #27191elainewParticipant
We’re so sorry to hear about your father. We also thought he had a long journey yet in his valiant struggle. You will certainly find comfort in knowing you were there for him 100% in all ways, and that he knows you’re a strong person who will go on in his absence.
We’re praying for you, Gary and Elaine
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