My sweet beautiful daughter passed away November 16, 2015.

My sweet beautiful daughter passed away November 16, 2015. She was 49 years old. We were VERY close. She had some medical problems through her life but all were managed. I NEVER dreamed that we would be given this diagnosis. First of all I had never heard of it and I am a Registered Nurse with a Bachelor’s Degree. I was overwhelmed to say the least.

She was given the diagnosis May 2015 and it was Stage IV with metastasis to the bones. The chemo involved was very caustic and was not recommended for her. She was a small girl weighing 90 # and only 4’9″.

We were told by our second oncologist that he did not recommend any chemotherapy, only palliative care. He estimated that she would live 3-4 months. She lived 6 months. I took care of her day and night. Watching her suffer was the absolute worst thing I’ve ever been through.

Now, the terrible grief. It’s been almost 3 months and its been hell. Crying spells daily, panic attacks, sleepless nights. I am getting counseling now and am also on antidepressant and antianxiety meds. I Just have to figure out how to live without her and haven’t figured that out yet.

I also posted this in the Grief Forum. I forgot I should introduce myself as this is my first post.