Dear Pam, not a day goes by that I don’t think of you and Lauren. Lauren our Super Woman and Pam our Wonder Woman, what a dynamic duo. Please cut yourself some slack and know that it is way too soon to even think of doing anything any different than you are. You have shown the strength of a Mountain and with all you carried on your shoulders and for so long, it is going to take some time to come back down to some kind of normal. Thank you for checking in now and then but please take care of yourself. You are so loved by us all and Lauren.
I thought it was about time that I let you know how we are doing. Well, it seems to get more difficult as the days pass. I miss my daughter so much and wish I could see and talk to her. I want to hear her laugh again and watch her get married to her beloved Gio. But, all of this will not happen, no matter how much I wish, hope, and pray. I know we will all see her again one day, but I want to see her now. Mark and I go to the cemetery every day after he gets off work. We feel comforted being near her body. We are going to order her headstone tomorrow and it will be pizzazzy just like she was. The rest of the family is equally as devastated by the loss of Lauren and will need time to heal as well. I will let you know the technical reasons for Lauren’s death in a later post. I think it will help you all to understand what happened. I will tell you this. At the time of her death, there was no sign of cancer in her body, so she did win that battle. And we have been told by many at U of M that Lauren will help so many others by what they learned from her. I am very proud of the way Lauren handled herself through all of this. She is definitely my HERO and showed me what strength, determination, and hope are all about. God bless my Lauren and all of you wonderful people waging your own battle. You are all in my heart forever.