So depressed

John is getting sicker everyday, he is taking Tarceva that isn’t working because he’s still loosing weight.
He can’t sleep flat due to the extreme burping, gas and pain associated with the chemo. He needs a hospital bed because he’s trying to sleep propped up and isn’t getting enough rest.
The Dr. won’t give him a hospital bed unless he is on Hospice which he is fighting tooth and nail to avoid.

My youngest daughter was just arrested for not finishing community service for a ticket she got, her 10 month old and 3 year old sre with my other daughter, I had to borroe 3,000 to pay her fines and I am going out of my mind.

I’m seeing my dr. to get my meds upped in strength. I just can’t take anymore. All I want is 1 day of total peace. I want John to realize he needs hospice. My God help me.

I’m sorry to vent like this but I can’t take much more.

Charlene