Sammi……already you have been through so much, I just know that this last step you will manage as well. Think of your little girls, how your Dad would want you to be strong for him and for his granddaughters and know that this day will be behind you as well. Baby steps, dear Sammi and remember that our love and good wishes will surround you.
Sammi, all that you are feeling is sadly, normal. What kind of person would you be if you did not feel that way? I remember before Teddy’s Memorial I did take a 5mg valium and that kept me calm and I focused in Church on the pianist. He used to come visit Teddy and we became friends. He would look over at me and give me a little smile and I realized he was trying to get a friend through and it did the trick. So many have felt what you are feeling and somehow they came through just fine. You never know how strong you are until “strong” is the only choice you have!