THANKYOU EVERYONE FOR YOUR REPLIES , IN SOME WAYS IT HELPS TO KNOW THAT ME AND MY FAMILY ARE NOT ALONE IN SEEING THIS CANCER TEAR THROUGH A LOVED ONES LIFE AND THEN LEAVE YOUR OWN LIFE IN PIECES BUT I DONT MEAN THAT IN A CRUEL WAY WHAT SO EVER. BUT THAT SOMEONE ELSE CAN TOTALLY UNDERSTAND WHAT WE ARE GOING THROUGH & AND I KNOW THAT CANCER IS CANCER , BUT IN ALL HONESTY I HAVE SEEN BOTH MY GRANDADS DIE FROM CANCER AND ALSO AN AUNT , BUT I MUST SAY NOTHING IS LIKE THIS ONE CC IT JUST SEEMS TO STOP YOU IN YOUR TRACKS AND THE DOCS DONT KNOW ENOUGH TO TREAT IT IN MOST CASES TO SUCCESS P.S ONCE AGAIN THANKS FOR THE FEEDBACK AND STAY IN TOUCH ……… I JUST HOPE THERE IS LIFE AFTER DEATH SO I CAN SEE MY DAD AGAIN XXXXXXX