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  • in reply to: Compassionate Allowance/ Social Security #53798
    elainew
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    As an added note…Gary was only 60 years old when he qualified.

    in reply to: Compassionate Allowance/ Social Security #53797
    elainew
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    My husband, Gary, received Social Security Disability through the Compassionate Act. He applied more than a year after his diagnosis and he had been working parttime up to that point. Because he was no longer able to work, his application was processed immediately, the date of eligibility was determined to be the first visit he ever made to our ER with jaundice. He was paid retroactively…I believe minus the 5 month required waiting period. Eventhough his diagnosis was CC it was never questioned that he was included as part of this act (possibly because liver/pancreatic cancers are listed and he had Whipple surgery?). I believe part of our success with SS was the extremely compassionate gentleman who handled Gary’s case. He went out of his way to advise us and to obtain the information needed from Gary’s employer. I hope this is helpful.

    elainew
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    So beautifully put, Lainy. Today is the second anniversary of Gary’s passing. That doesn’t seem possible, I feel him with me as closely as ever, but things do begin to get more remote. I had to buy a new car, there are so many more new neighbors who never knew Gary, etc. But I continue to remember what an inspiration he was and how he wanted me to continue my life without him. My prayers to all of you who are also sorrowful.

    in reply to: Shock and augh! #53613
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    Hi! My husband had difficulty with testicle swelling from being in a hospital bed for long periods. Much like they elevate your legs to prevent swelling, they would fold up a washcloth and elevate his testicles…one of the rather uncomfortable side effects that goes along with all this. We did have some laughs over it though!! Good luck and I hope u get good news soon.

    in reply to: TEDDY IS HERE! #45303
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    Isn’t it such a relief and comfort when those things happen? All of a sudden you realize your loved one is really with you and close by. I’ve had a few amazing things happen that are far more than “coincidence”. I always chuckle and think..OK, Gary, I get it and thank you for being with me.

    in reply to: Teddy is at PEACE #45198
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    Lainy,

    The news we’ve all expected but have been dreading to hear. I’m so very sorry, Lainy, but take comfort in knowing you were there 100% for Teddy. Gary also passed after 3 nights in hospice, and the end was something you never forget…awful but awesome. Just think of all the other CC victims who greeted Teddy at the gates! The pain and suffering is over, you will get through this by your strength and memories. My thoughts and prayer are always with you…you’re my CC “sister”. Elaine

    in reply to: Hospice Here We Come #45078
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    Lainy,

    You’ll get through this and have wonderful memories and the comfort of knowing you were there for Teddy every step of the way. Your last days of this journey so vividly bring back the experience Gary went through 13 months ago. Once he was admitted to Hospice things went very quickly, but by then everyone in this situation realizes that is inevitable. Please don’t torture yourself with the idea Teddy isn’t being cared for in a loving manor. I’m convinced that at this point of his journey he has one foot on earth and one in heaven.
    My sincerest thoughts and prayers are with you both. You have inspired all of us. You can do this! Love, Elaine

    in reply to: Books about grief? #43674
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    Kimmie,
    My husband died one year ago and I have been tremendously uplifted by some of the books I have read or listened to while in the car. 90 Minutes In Heaven by Don Piper was extraordinary! I wish I had discovered it before Gary passed away so he could have read it also. The first few chapters are the real heart of the book – they describe the author’s vision of heaven. It was such a comfort to me! I also like anything written by Max Lucado and Joyce Meyer. You don’t have to be a religious person to gain hope, perspective and optimism from them.
    Getting used to the fact that everyone else goes about their business while your world is shattered is one of the most difficult emotions I faced. It does get better with time. A bereavement group or counselor(and possibly some medication) helps as well. Good luck…wishing you peace of mind. Elaine

    in reply to: Teddy Boy —not doing well #43690
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    Lainy,
    I’m sorry Teddy is showing signs of decline, and I understand the “pit of the stomach” feeling you get with each new thing. When I look back on Gary’s rather sudden prognosis of “weeks to live”, I’m amazed to remember how quickly we switched to “let’s find the right hospice” mode. CC always seems to up the ante, doesn’t it? In Gary’s case, his pain and sedation meds were gradually increased over a number of days until he was unresponsive and breathing more and more shallowly. At that point the hospice people were pretty accurately able to determine how long he had left. The sedation was particularly useful during the last 1-2 days when Gary would go through an aggitated state and insist on being helped to the recliner eventhough he had been seemingly unconscious the minute before. I’m only telling you these details because I know you’ve expressed an interest in being informed and want to be prepared. The progression towards the end continues in the same manner as the course of the disease has for all these years….day by day, then hour by hour.

    Thinking of you everyday, praying for a peaceful passing, Elaine

    in reply to: TO Kate & Margaret When Journey Ends at Home #43601
    elainew
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    That was beautiful to read, Lainy, and I can tell you from experience that the memories you’re creating now WILL carry you through later. Being at peace with your situation and the knowledge that you fought as hard as you did TOGETHER will give you the strength and attitude that will allow you to continue on as Teddy WANTS you to. I’m still praying daily for a gentle end for Teddy and for a calming peace for you. You’re helping to keep my wonderful memories of Gary alive!
    Elaine

    in reply to: Update on my dad #41700
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    Pam and Lainy,
    How funny!!! You have to be able to cherish every moment. I remember how thin Gary had gotten…he also had the big eyes. But mostly I remember how huge his EARS looked…sometimes I thought he would just fly away!! How can you NOT love ET?!
    Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers, Elaine

    in reply to: Hospice to the End? #41456
    elainew
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    Hi Lainy,

    Gosh, this is a tough one to try to address…what’s good for one family may not be in the best interests of another. I would hate to influence you in any particular direction, but I’ll relate our experience and you can take it for what it’s worth.

    While in the hospital being treated for fluid in the lungs (totally unaware at first that it was cancerous),our oncologist informed us Gary had weeks to live. He had been fighting cc for 2 years and we were still hopeful there was something out there for him. So…the decision had to be made – did he want to go home from the hospital with Hospice care or go directly into a Hospice unit. Since we were in a winter rental condo(FL) far removed from our permanent home, the decision was relatively easy to make. Gary polled the room (me, Gary’s brother and his wife, and himself) urging us all to be very honest. We all agreed a Hospice unit would be best. I was afraid of what was going to happen and how I would handle it at home alone…and Gary, as his usual wonderful self, wanted whatever was best for me. The option of driving or flying to SC was off the table by then because of Gary’s weakened condition.

    So he was transferred to a local Hospice center that very night. BEST decision we could have made!! It was wonderful from the very first second we arrived. They made Gary feel like he was the king of the world..they were totally, 100% there to meet his needs. I can’t even explain the courtesy, respect, tenderness and excellent medical care that was shown to my husband. The staff went out of their way to speak to each family member as they all started to converge on the unit..reassuring, answering questions, seeing to our comfort, extending emotional support. They were able to almost precisely predict how and when the end would come and encouraged family members to travel sooner than later. They ministered to Gary with such dignity that we were all in awe of the process of his body shutting down (I know that sounds odd and gruesome, but that just goes to show you how amazing they were!). Gary passed away 5 days after entering Hospice. The entire experience was absolutely awful and awesome at the same time. We had those days to entirely devote to Gary (and to each other) and had no worries about anything medical…which was a huge relief. We were with Gary every minute, without distractions, and were left with no regrets of whether we had done the right thing.

    Lainy and Teddy, I’m not trying to persuade you to do things the way we chose…certainly you being in your own home with family close by makes a huge difference in what you will decide to do. Gary was not going to pass away in his own home no matter what. The only issue I can really address is the medical presence to the end. That was a wonderful blessing that worked for us.

    My thoughts and prayers are truly with you everyday. You two have been our heroes from the day we first found cc.org. Take care, laugh and pray together. Elaine

    in reply to: Stand Up To Cancer #41277
    elainew
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    Great idea!! Done!

    in reply to: Brachytherapy #41186
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    Heather,

    My husband had his Whipple at Duke. We live 3 hours away (Conway, SC) so did chemo and radiation locally but returned to Duke many, many times for follow up care, infections, further surgery, etc. His surgeon was Dr. Doug Tyler. Duke is a wonderful place and very up-to-date in the treatment of bile duct cancer. If you would like any additional info on Duke, please don’t hesitate to ask or to contact me personally. My thoughts and prayers are with you. Elaine

    in reply to: Teddy Update #40918
    elainew
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    Lainy and Teddy,

    You are both in my thoughts and prayers. You’ve been traveling an amazing journey that has brought each of you to the place where you now reside. That place is incredible because you have experienced the closeness and Godlike environment that you now share . Although it’s difficult for you to see now, you will be able to take great comfort in knowing that you were at Ted’s side 100% of the way, that you built a trust that is on a higher plane than most couples ever experience. It doesn’t seem like a fair tradeoff though…but the two of you have given so many people hope, humor, insight, joy and comfort. And I know in the days to come you’ll enjoy many laughs and tender moments with family (yikes!) and friends. Hang on, you can do it, and everyone will get through this tough time. Teddy will always be the Miracle Man!!

    Fondly, Elaine

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