lfg

Steve– Karen and I started dating when she was 14 and I was 15.. We were married for 40 years when one day her eye whites turned yellow and the diagnosis came as Cholangio carcinoma.. We lived about 70 miles from Mayo Clinic in Rochester so decided to doctor with the “Big guys”… That was almost 8 years ago.. Karen died Feb 1 2007 and I still tear up with old time rock and roll and the sight of baby wild birds or one of many things she truly loved.

I was so weak just after she died that I could not even get the cap off the gas tank of my pick-up.. Carried a pipe wrench and when nobody was looking would use it on the gas cap. When people asked how I was doing I lied with “I’m gonna make it”..

I should be over it by now, but find my thoughts around her almost every day.. My hurt is less now, but gotta admit my selfish hanging on to her leaving stays with me…

I have no desire to create another relationship and don’t really know how to look for a replacement for Karen..

So– hang in there .. advice I got that sticks is — love something ( I have a dandy little dog)– accept that this really happened and ya gotta move on..

seeyaonthemarsh-Don
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