Colleen -this is very late -I just started reading on this site again. I am so very sorry it broke my heart to see that you lost your Fred, you and I connected very early when we exchanged emails and posts about you Fred and my Tom. And I received your kind card of condolence last March when I lost Tom -thank you. I do not have your address or email anymore or I would contact you privately. I was so hoping things would be different for you both, and I was unable to come back on this site for some time, as I was dealing with my grief. I just read all your posts, as I was anxious to hear about you and Fred. Am so very sorry, I know so very well the hell you went through, and you and the girls have a such a tough road ahead. I have a few months on you, and I know only too well the pain you must be feeling. I was so hoping you would have an easier time of it, as I convinced myself that we would have had more ime too if the embollisms had not taken over…but this terrible monster has robbed us -as it has so many others, I hope you find some comfort in your children and that the sun will shine for you again someday. Please feel free to contact me at my new email adress if you should care to touch base sometime. michelechase8@gmail.com