sarahlindsay

Lisa,
I am so very sorry that you and your family have to go through this. It breaks my heart to know what your children will have to go through but also the way you feel as I know it is exactly the way my mom felt. Mom cried very little through the whole ordeal. The only time she really cried was when talking about leaving us behind. The road ahead will be a rough one but as someone who has experienced this first hand I will answer your questions. 1) How will they feel? I will be honest, they will be devastated. But they will also be so greatful that they had such an amazing mother. My mom was amazing and often went above and beyond for us. My siblings and I often say we’d rather have 28 years of a perfect mom than a lifetime of an average one. 2) Who will be there for them? They will be there for each other. My siblings and I were always close, but over the last 6 months we have formed a bond closer than I could ever have imagined. They are my rocks, your children will find strength in each other. 3) How will they go on without you? They will never be without you for you are a part of them and they will see you in themselves and in each other. You will forver hold a special place in their hearts and will live on in their memories always. Your need for each other will never change. I need my mother more and more each day but she has shaped myself, my brother and my sister into the people we are today and has shown us enough love to last a lifetime. Take each day as it comes and live each moment to it’s fullest for it is these moments they will look back on for years to come. Please know that you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.

OK, now I am crying. Thank you all for your responses. When you are in this situation you truly feel that noone in the world could understand the pain and the loss that you feel. This site, however, has shown me that someone does understand…you. Thank you for that. I am so very sorry for the losses you have all endured. Nobody should ever have to feel the pain and emptiness of losing someone. My mom was an amazing woman, and to know her was to love her as is evidenced by the more than 400 people that came to her wake. She had a way of making you feel like you were the only one in the world when you spoke-her eyes, her focus, her attention was on you. She made you feel like you had something worth saying regardless of how trivial it actually was. She had a way…she just had a way!! I hate that for a while everyone was so grief stricken over the loss of my mother. But slowly, as to be expected, everyone went on with their lives. They returned home to their families after the funeral, they went back to their jobs after the weekend, they laughed with their friends again that night but for us, there is no going back. We will forever live this nightmare, we are forever scarred with the memories of her slowly slipping away before our eyes, we will live the rest of our lives without the love and guidance of our mother. I hate that everyone else gets to go back to normal…I WANT TO GO BACK!!!!!!!!!I don’t mean to rant but sometimes it’s all just too much and I want to scream…in fact, sometimes I do. Thank you all!! *HUGS*