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Kathy,
It took quite a while before I actually got thru a day when I didn’t think about dying. At least a year. They put me on Ativan for a month because all I did was cry. It seriously takes a while. But you will get there. I try not to put too much effort into worrying about it everyday now. Some days are still worse than others, but on the whole, it’s easier to get thru the day. I keep telling myself “five years…” but I know the fear will never go away completely.
I didn’t go back to work for 2 1/2 months after surgery. That was 3 1/2 years ago, and I am still trying to get my head back into being at work. I have been extremely lucky to work where I do. I have been here almost 19 years and they know me very well, so they know what I can do. But we have been terribly slow for the last year and a half and I really worry, if it came down to it, would they keep me? I am not the same employee I was years ago. I just keep thinking about how there are so many other more important things than work. Hmmm, not sure where that came from. We weren’t even talking about work!
Anyway, it will all get better, I promise!!! It really does just take time, but I will tell you now, you will never be the person you were before you got cancer. But one day it will just be a part of your life that is fact, and won’t occupy all of your future plans!
Hugs,
SueKathy,
First, let me say congratulations!!! Not many people are given the chance at being “cured”. I, too, am one of the lucky ones. On Jan. 29, I will be four years cancer free! It doesn’t occupy EVERY moment of my day now, but it is still a major factor in how I live me life. I had surgery at IU Medical Center in Indianapolis. I now have bloodwork done every 3-6 months and am due for a yearly scan in April.
If I get into a funk and really start thinking about all that’s happened, I can be bawling in a matter of minutes. But then I think about how lucky I have been, how I have been given the chance to enjoy my grandchildren for a few more years and how my husband and I are trying to do things that would have been put off for many years.
It really is a “one day at a time” issue and 365 of those add up to a year, and then two years and eventually four. I am shooting to be a 10, 15, even 20 year survivor and I plan to stick around just to remind you guys that there is hope. And a great life after being diagnosed with CC!!!!
On a side note. Kris (devoncat) was my “cancer buddy” and tho we never met, when she died, it tore a huge hole in my heart. Another reminder to live each day to it’s fullest, just like she did.
Hugs,
SueI sit here at my desk, early before work with no one around, crying. I never knew Kris personally, but she was my cancer buddy and I feel like I have lost my best friend. How can one person, so far across the world, make such an impact on people she doesn’t even know?
I will always have a hole in my heart.
Kris, I hope you are peace among the angels for you surely were one on earth.
Love and hugs,
Your cancer buddy,
SueLainy,
You and Teddy have been in my thoughts and prayers so much recently and I am sorry to hear of Teddy’s passing. Yet, I remember when my father-in-law passed from Parkinson’s. It was just me, my husband and his parents. And the relief from pain and the sense of peace was so pure, it was hard to be upset. You are such a strong, loving person and I know you will be surrounded by family and friends. Allow them in and let them help you. They all love you as they loved Teddy and you are far from alone. I know you will miss Teddy, but you had such a wonderful life together. Try to celebrate the memories.
Sending big hugs,
SueHi d517,
This is Sue, cancer buddy to Kris. Congrats on your husbands surgery! As far as what the doctor said…NO, it does not ALWAYS come back. More often than not, it does. But there are survivors. I am one. My surgery was January of 2007, and I am still cancer free, so you can see it is closing in on 4 years. My tumor was almost 6cm and I had clean margins and no mets. I did not have Hep C, so I am sure that is a factor, but no one knows what will happen and he has been given a wonderful chance at recovery!
It too me 2 1/2 to 3 months before I really felt “normal” again after surgery. I was so tired and had no appetite, so it sounds like he is following the same path. It’s a very intense surgery, so the body has to heal. Hopefully he will feel better soon.
We are so glad you found us. The people in this forum are amazing and will do everything in their power to help you by answering any questions and giving all kinds of encouragement.
Hugs,
Sueminnie305,
My tumor was 5.7×5.3 cm but was located totally within the “meat” of the liver so the doctor’s were able to resect it successfully with clean margins. I know I was one of the “lucky” ones. As you can see, it really does have to do with placement of the tumor. Best of luck to you and yours.
Hugs,
SueHi Dmeek!!!!
This is Sue, I met you at the symposium. I am so thrilled you checked out this site. Everyone here really needs, wants and craves hearing good news! And after having met you, I KNOW you will make a great addition to this site.
Hope to hear from you soon!
Hugs,
SueBob,
That’s GREAT news and almost exactly what I went thru at IU Med. My tumor was almost 6cm, but they removed my gallbladder and the right lobe of my liver and so far, 3 years later, I am still cancer free (I’m still waiting on the results of my last scan). You can be assured that they will take very good care of your dad!
Hugs,
SueHans,
Tell Kris that we are all thinking about her. I need my cancer buddy back up and rarin’ to go. I know how tiresome feeling ill can be. I hope the antibiotics can wipe out that infection and you can both get home to the kitties. I’m really sorry this is just going on and on. I wish I was there so I could come to the hospital and sing and dance and make you guys laugh! (Hmmm, maybe not…you say she’s ALREADY nauseous!)
Take care.
Hugs,
SueHans and Kris,
There are no words…I am so sorry to hear this. Please know that you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers. I hope Kris will heal quickly and will be able to get back home with you, the kitties and all the tulips.
Hugs,
SueAll of my good thoughts, best wishes, fingers crossed, big bear hugs to both of you. You and Kris will both be in many of our thoughts tomorrow. Be assured there are lots of prayers being sent up for good news.
Take care of our red-haired favorite gal.
Hugs,
SueBob,
I live about 20 miles north of Indy! If you get a reference to IU Med, see if you can get in with Dr. Mary Maluccio. She was outstanding. Always helpful and always hopeful. No waiting on scan days, you always see her a couple hours after the scan and she reviews it with you. If you want her info, just let me know.
Glad your dad is feeling a little better. Going through CC was the toughest thing I have ever done, but having your family and friends around you (thanks CC.org!!!) REALLY makes a difference.
Hugs,
SueHi Bob,
Welcome to the site…sorry you need to be here. Yep, I have been treated in Indianapolis at the IU Med Center. It’s a fantastic med center and I was lucky to get the absolute right surgeon. I had surgery in 01/07 and I have been doing great since then. Like Kris said, you are more than welcome to search out my posts, or feel free to email me directly. We are all thinking of you and your family.
Hugs,
Sue
