God bless you Pam. I lost my precious mom on April 1, 2007. I miss her every single day. This cancer is so devastating!!! Each year to honor my mom on 4/1 the kids and I go to her favorite beach and write on a balloon ( messages to her ) then we let it go and send it to heaven for her. We also write in the sand messages to her. It’s a good day to spend in remembrance of her and my kids look forward to it. A good friend of mine who lost her dad 5 years ago said, the pain never goes away but the intensity of the pain gets better each year. I have to agree with her…hang in there. Sending lots of hugs and love xoxo Vicky