Hi Lainy,
I’ve probably read every post you’ve ever done so I’m very glad to hear from you, and welcome back.
Yes Nana has Hospice. She also has aides/sitters 24 hours a day. She has been on and off Oxycodone, Oxycontin and oxygen. She is on Lorazapan three times a day to help her agitation and ever worrying mind. All seven of us, eight being Nana, have told her how much we love her, that we’ll take care of each other, that she doesn’t have to worry, that we will miss her but we will all be ok. She has been the matriarch of our little family and a bit of a control freak at times. The hardest part for her in all of this is that she “can’t do what she use to.” In fact even bedridden she has told people that she’s being lazy. Really, nowadays, she can hardly speak so she doesn’t say that so much anymore. Lainy I don’t even think she’s dying of cancer at this point. She’s not showing any signs of jaundice, no bloating and no real pain besides her back (she has severe scoliosis and osteoporosis). I don’t know. Thanks again for writing back. You’ll probably have to get use to my ramblings.