Dear Karen,
All of us know the pain you’re experiencing, and we’re here to help, if we possibly can. The possibility of losing someone you love more than anything is a terrible thing – but don’t give up hope too quickly! Sometimes people tolerate chemo pretty well – I know that chemo for breast cancer and lung cancer seem to be much more debilitating than the chemos used for cc (generally, and in my experience of seeing loved ones suffer through different chemos). As Carol said, look around the site and I’m sure you’ll find some inspiration and information to help you. Post a question and someone is bound to have an answer, or will at least attempt to answer.
Lastly, if you just need to vent, go right ahead. You need some support in this time or you’ll go crazy.
Much luck and love to you,
Joyce