My very embarrassing emotional break down.
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An ANTI-FUNERAL! Kris, you are too cool for words. Sign me up as a member of your fan club!
I can’t speak Swedish, but, Har det bra! (maybe Norwegian works too)
Hugs,
Kristin
Bazel wrote:Kris,I don’t think you give yourself enough credit – even on my best day ever I would likely have a meltdown were I taking a Swedish class! Learning any foreign language is a challenge – but Sweedish? I can’t even pretend to know any Sweedish as I don’t know the names of any Sweedish food…
Don’t be hard on yourself..
Bz
I got two words for you…smorgasboard and ombusman! See, you do know some swedish!
Thanks for all the support. I am heading back to class in the morning with head high (it helps keep the thinning hair from view). I think I need to go back to class. I am struggling to keep up, but mentally I need it. I have come much closer to the realisation that I am not going to beat this beast. I am not the type of person to just sit around and wait for the ending. I need to be around people and to focus on something other than Leroy. So now matter how bad it gets in class, it is better than sitting at home thinking about the future. Besides, if I do beat this, I plan to have an anti-funeral at the 5 year mark where people get to do the exact opposite of a funeral…wear bright colors, say mean things about me, dance and laugh. I will need to give a good speach in Swedish for it.
Kris
Kris,
I don’t think you give yourself enough credit – even on my best day ever I would likely have a meltdown were I taking a Swedish class! Learning any foreign language is a challenge – but Sweedish? I can’t even pretend to know any Sweedish as I don’t know the names of any Sweedish food…
Don’t be hard on yourself..
Bz
Oh how FRUSTRATING! Does your teacher know about your health situation? Do your classmates? A good teacher will make it comfortable for you to come back to class when you’re ready, by talking to your classmates if necessary. (I taught English as a Foreign Language for 13 years so I know a lot about this kind of class.)
Maybe now isn’t the best time to work on improving your Swedish, or maybe going to class isn’t the best way for you now. You could try an audio course instead, or a conversation partner– something you could do at your own pace on “good” days.
Kris, sweetheart, please be very very gentle to yourself and treat yourself like the treasure you are!
Hugs from
(the other!) Kristin
Kris…disinfecting the computer before use in class is a smart move for all. Flu season is coming our way! Chemo brain comes and goes and you may just be on target for your next Swedish lesson. Hugs to Hans for coming up with just the right remedy for a not so good day.
And of course, many hugs to you.
MarionBig hugs, Kris. I cannot even imagine how frustrating and sad today must have been for you. I have no doubt that everyone in your class will look forward to your return. You have no reason to be embarrassed, and I’m sure some of them understood what was going on.
You have an amazing husband! Normally I would say Mexican food cures all, but I bet it’s hard to get Mexican food in Sweden! Chinese is the next best thing!! I hope the Chinese food has kicked in, and you’re snoozing away the yummy meal!
Kris,
I hope Hans and the Chinese managed to work their magic on you and that you feel a bit better now, and I’m sure you’ll manage to go back to class!
Best wishes
Gavin
Hi Kris,
I feel so bad about your time in class. I’m sending you a big hug from Cleveland, Ohio! I hope the Chinese food helped. You know my prescription to a bad day…..climb into bed with the TV remote! Escape from reality for a while.
Betsy
Thank God for Hans. What a sweetheart! I hope that gave you an emotional boost and that you are now feeling better. I know you will go back & do just fine. You are dealing with so much and you have been so strong. Your break down was well deserved. Now you can pick youself up, dust yourself off & carry on. You have Hans and all of us here behind you to give you all the strength, hope and support you want & need. Go back to class with your head held high. No one cares what the others think. We all know & understand and if they don’t or can’t that is their problem, not yours. Take care Kris. We all love you and want you hanging out here for a real long time.
Love & Hugs,
DarlaWhat a day. I heard alot about chemo brain, but I wasnt expecting it to hit so hard. Today in Swedish class, we had an assignment where we listened to “easy” Swedish and then had to write what was said. This was all on the computer and we could listen to it as many times as we wanted…we could even slow it down so they talked VERY S–L–O–W. I would listen to a couple of words, then try to write. By the time I started to write, I had forgotten what was said. So I listened again. No luck. So then instead of sentences, I decided to go 4 or 5 words at a time. I still forgot. Then I decided to go 2 or 3 words at a time…still forgot. I honestly could not remember 2 or 3 words in a row. I broke down in the middle of Swedish class, crying like a baby with my mascara giving me raccoon eyes. My teacher (bless her) was very nice and thought that slowing down the recording would make it easier, but that just made the time between listening and writing longer so it was more difficult. I was trying to explain that it was my memory, not the speed of the language, but I was crying and so stressed that I am not sure she really understood. Then to top it all off, my nose started to bleed (one of the more interesting side effects of chemo) and I had to leave to the bathroom. What a scene! I am sure all the other students think I am weird because I disinfect the desk and computer before class starts because of my low white cell count. I dont know how I am going to go back to class again.
Bless Hans. He came home for lunch and I started crying again when I told him what happened so he took me out for Chinese. Yum.
Kris
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