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Hello all. Had my chemo yesterday. Am feeling great but it takes me a while to get motivated each day. I skipped chemo for a couple of weeks and began having some discomfort on my right side just under the rib cage. The dr said one of the blood tests showed some growth of something but it should get better now that I have resumed chemo.
I don’t understand all that and honestly I don’t worry about it. That is his job. I am just going to live. For as long as I can.
I was told from the beginning that radiation and surgery were not options because of the size and amount of rumors. I believe one is about 7 inches long and about that thick. I take the doctors words for it because they are the specialists. I simply don’t worry about it. It seems to work for me. And I know that I am in God’s hands totally.
Having family problems more than anything. But ignoring that as best as I can. I cannot solve their problems. And it all happened because I got cancer and was given approx 4 months to live. All my belongings were packed up and put at various houses. And now some of my family are concerned that others are trying to keep my stuff. It is so ridiculous. The jealousy and greed is very disturbing. Sometimes I feel like burning it all.
Who knows if I have months or years to live. And whose business is it what I do with my things. I have told them this. They want me to feel guilty for not telling each of them what I was going to do before I did it.
Ah, such is life. And this too shall pass. That is my motto.
.Take care and will check back later. Good night.
Cheryl
I am 56 years old until 02/27/12. I was diagnosed around August 20 and started chemo / gemcitabine (?) on September 16. I get anti-nausea and steroids before the gemzar each treatment, but that is all.
My home meds include OxyContin twice a day (low dosage), lortab, Percocet, zofran (daytime as it doesnt make me sleepy), phenergan (night), and carafate for the burning in my esophagus. I take other meds as I suffer from depression (years and years), have anxiety, and trouble sleeping.
My cc is within the bile ducts inside the liver, do intrahepatic. At first they thought it was also in my lymph nodes, but I don’t think that was the case after all.
It is funny to me that what ultimately led toy diagnosis was severe pain down right side of neck and along arm to shoulder. I was told that was diaphragm pain caused by the cancer.
I still (most of the time) find it very hard to believe I have cancer. My family is so loving, caring, and doting on me. I let them do it because it makes them feel good.
I had my chemo yesterday and the only problem I am having right now is the burning in my esophagus do time for more carafate.
Thanks to you all for your kindness and responses. I feel like I have an extended family here.
My favorite thing to say (because it is true) is “I am still feeling the love.”. I hope you all feel it too! Have a blessed day. I know I will.
Cheryl
Hello everyone. Well, yesterday I had a long talk with my mother. I tried to emphasize that I am a grown woman and respectfully do not have to tell anyone anything I do. I still have to talk to my sister. I hate this stuff. Why can’t people just see that I am happy and stay out of my business? I know they only do what they think is in my best interest, but if it causes turmoil and strife among my loved ones, then it is not in my best interest. I really don’t like having to deal with this. But it seems I have no choice. My mom called me yesterday crying and all. I just hate it. But I know that God will help me get it all worked out. I believe He really loves me and whatever happens is for a reason.
I feel like my body has a sort of numbness about it – physically. It is a weird feeling. And my bronchitis has been lingering for weeks. Other than that and feeling tired so much, I am doing great. Better than a lot of people who don’t even have cancer. So, I am still blessed!
Cheryl
Thank you everyone for giving me words of advice and wisdom. I appreciate it. I do have a great attitude. my doctor is absolutely amazed, my family is amazed; but it just seems so natural to me to have this attitude. I know that God is the only one who knows when I will leave this world. I feel so good about it that I bought a new car the day after Christmas after all I think I deserve it. Yesterday because I felt so poorly I began to wonder if I made a mistake by buying a new car with only a limited time to live because I felt like it was really real.
I have five natural grandchildren and three step grandchildren they range from 18 years to two years and they are a blessing to me. Yesterday was my two-year-old’s birthday and it was wonderful except I couldn’t stop crying.
I do not focus on what little time I have but rather focus on what all I can do during the time I have. My family is very supportive and I mean very supportive recently I gave to my best friend who happens to be my first cousin a car that I had I want her to have my sister and mother seem to think that I am not capable of making those decisions and now they have been very hateful to her for taking the car. I have to figure out how to make them understand that the gift was my decision and they need to back off.
I rarely get angry anymore because I know that life is too short for that. My spirit is sweet and loving. I wish I could pass that on to them. That situation causes me more grief than anything else. Any advice on how to handle that will be appreciated.
My chemo starts with a “C” but I cannot remember the name of it. My doctor is one of the most wonderful people I have ever met. If there were trials going on or anything that would be of benefit to me, he assures me he will let me know but as for now the chemo is doing its job. I trust him implicitly and since I saw several doctors in the hospital who confirmed that I was terminally ill, I do not feel the need to seek other opinions.
Anyway, I don’t have anything particular to talk about so I just put down what comes to mind I hope that’s okay. Mainly I am curious about what is to come, like what changes will be made or will happen to me and how will I know it’s getting closer?
Again I’m so glad I found this site and I’ll check in frequently have a great day
