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  • in reply to: 5 count em 5 #86364
    iowagirl
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    Some people have jumping up and down on the mattress reactions to this kind of news…..and then there are those like I am….who sit here with tears in our eyes. I’m so happy for you…..and so understand your question, “Why me?” from both sides. May the rest of 2015 go as great as January….and all the Januarys after this one.

    Julie T.

    in reply to: LisaS #86329
    iowagirl
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    Darla, Do you still have the window open for the obituary website for LisaS? Sometimes that is the problem seeing posts. You have to close the window for the site and then reopen to see your post. I went to the site and can now see all of our posts, including yours.

    Julie T.

    in reply to: No chemo today #86136
    iowagirl
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    Duke…I had a somewhat similar experience when i changed oncologist….but instead for me, it was having to convince them , the new oncologist and social worker, that I was okay with having them as my doctor and clinic, after horrible medical treatment and emotional abuse from the first oncologist. I was told that maybe I wouldn’t be happy with ANY doctor. That was flat out false……I didn’t trust anyone at that point, but if they could give me some assurance that they handled emergencies better and paid more attention, I would feel better. but instead of them comforting me for what I’d gone through, I had to convince them that I could “get over” what had happened and be happy. GAH!!!

    I can sort of understand why an oncologist might want to wait on a chemo if you’re seeing a new oncologist, who theroetically might want to or agree to change the chemo. It sort of sounds like the old onc is cutting ties….she’s not stupid….she knows that she hasn’t done what you’ve asked…that she says things aren’t possible that you know are regarding chemo. I’d say that she’s holding back on chemo to not be responsible for you any further, as she figures you are going to jump ship anyway. That would be my guess rather than they don’t expect to see you again because you will die. In a way, she may be doing you a favor…because by the time you get to chemo again, under a new oncologist, it won’t be muddied up with blood counts that are as bad. It might end up being a new start.

    As to the Mayo onc nurse I had last time up there….I felt that she was really quite “chilly” also….but hadn’t really thought about it until just now. Other people were warm and friendly. But, this last gal I saw in November was a cold fish. I don’t think she said more than a few words to me for the half hour that she took vitals, except for asking some charting questions. It was very uncomfortably quiet in the room. I can’t remember back to the previous nurses, so I guess they were so-so…neither friendly , nor unfriendly, I couldn’t even make small talk with this one though…..it was almost ike I wasn’t there in the room. I felt for sure she must know something…that the CT scan had shown something awful and she was trying to stay distanced in case I asked her anything. So, maybe you got the same one I had…or one ike her….if so…..not surprised at Aimee noticing something “off”. I think that they see so many patients up there at Mayo, that besides needing to maintain a distance from the patients for obvious reasons, they just don’t have time to get involved anyway. That said…..some are a lot friendlier than others.
    Good luck with the appt on Monday with the new onc.

    Julie T.

    in reply to: LisaS #86326
    iowagirl
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    Thank you for letting us all know about Lisa. I’ve posted on the condolence site also and urge everyone to do so.

    in reply to: No chemo today #86134
    iowagirl
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    Duke….my hubby was one of those slide rule geeks before the HP was out on the market….at least at ISU, I never remember seeing any of the HPs. I’m sure he still has his slide rule, but has been through many versions of calculators since the first one he got…which was about $400 and he resisted a long time before getting that one,…partly cost, partly old school. But, it was good technology at the time and indispensable today for the stuff elec engineers do. Hmm…now that he’s retired…wonder if he’ll ever use his latest calculator again???? Love my Geek!!!

    Julie T.

    in reply to: Unapproved drugs #86298
    iowagirl
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    Duke…it sounds to me like your onc does not want to be bothered…to even try. Your onc should be going to bat for you and pleading your case, even if it seems impossible. Why not turn over all the stones and give it a shot? Is there anywhere else you can go…..even if you can’t swing Mayo. Come to think of it…why not contact Dr. Alberts and ask him this question? He ought to know if it has been done…getting one of those drugs approved and covered. If he says it’s possible, even with special circumstances, then you could present it back to your onc and see what she’ll do. If she says no….she apparently is just too “busy”. If Dr. Alberts says that it’s possible, you might try to get him to go to bat for you with insurance an drug companies….as being a Mayo doctor, and an expert in this field, they might take his application more seriously. Just an idea. I’d personally not waste anymore time with the local onc. But, if you do, I’d ask her if it were HER family member…her husband…her child….would she try anyway.

    Julie T.

    in reply to: Vitamin C IV #86318
    iowagirl
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    I remember asking this same question when I was contemplating chemo and whether to request Vit C infusions along with the chemo. I never considered doing it instead of the chemo. However, I concluded for me that there was far too little hard evidence that it works to offset some of the issues of chemo. I never looked into it any further

    Julie T.

    in reply to: Sensitive material #86310
    iowagirl
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    Darla,

    I “think” that things may have changed some about the needle biopsy. We asked at the time….and was told that there was “very little” chance of seeding, the way that the tools worked. It still isn’t impossible, but very unlikely. I wish it were 100% so. We did also ask our Mayo oncologist after the fact…if seeding may have occurred because of the liver tumor biopsy, and he said it was very unlikely….same explanation as the local IR guy.

    I suspect that had I gone straight to Mayo though, they would have not done a biopsy. From what I’ve read, that whatever was in the liver needed to either gotten out or treated….and basically, the current thinking is to just go in after it if it shows signs that it must be either liver or CC cancer. My surgeon took one look at the CT….and said, “I know what this is…I’ve seen it before.” And man, was she sure of herself. But, the woman only operates on livers and pancreases…and she apparent did know what she saw. It just shows…the more experienced the doctor is with the CC, the better off you are usually. I don’t think she would ever have bothered with a biopsy.

    Duke…I have struggled with this question also….as you know. It makes no sense to me. Except, I’ve come to believe that possibly the risk of death from a surgery for a cancer that can’t be cured or gain significant survival time, may play into the decision. In other words…..if the surgery doesn’t go forward because of significant risk of death….then the patient may have more time left, albeit, not the amount that they want. I think that may also be the case when someone has an aborted resection…..though that really drives me nuts. My surgery was laparoscopic…..to remove the whole left liver lobe….and as such….if they’re going to do that much laparoscopically, why not go ahead and do it…and try to gain some extra time…..even if some mets are found when they first go into the abdominal cavity.

    My answer…..have the patient sit in on the tumor boards when surgery is discussed….and find out what the patient wants. If the patient wants to take the risk….and the docs have decided to operate anyway, why not just include another clause that absolves the surgeon from liability for the decision of the patient….and give it a try. I suspect with newer surgical techniques, they might find, among some of the better and more aggressive surgeons, that there may be some good outcomes. Sometimes, the only way things change in medicine is when some surgeons or doctors buck the status quo….and try something new….and have success….write it up in JAMA….and then more doctors jump on the band wagon and try it.

    Example: When I had a heart attack in 2002….I had a stent placed in my heart artery. The cardiologist went into my wrist with the cath instead of through my femoral artery in my groin. I had a very strong pulse in both arteries….and he decided that was the best route…and he’d been trained to do it….apparently the only one in town. I saw another cardiologist for followup….and he wanted to see my incision…so I showed him my wrist….on which you could not see even where the needle went in. He was amazed…checked my pulses…said…”You’re lucky….you could have had the artery occlude. I wouldn’t have used the wrist…only the artery in the groin,” Well…he didn’t know how. Fast forward about 10 years…and another doctor came into town….and the same cardio group is advertising how he does the stents through the wrist and how much better it is for the patient, recovery, etc. AND…he’s teaching the other cardio guys in his group how to do it.” Ten years ago…..doing that angiogram and stent through the wrist was out on the edge of medical care….but now….the same doctors who said it wasn’t a good thing to do are advertising that they know how.

    So, as patients…as CC patients….it seems that we have to be very proactive and aggressive to look for more opinions….and esp for the opinions of doctors who have shown themselves to be aggressive…more so than others…even other “experts” in CC. By doing our homework, with which this site and posters help, we can find some of those more progressive and aggressive doctors and surgeons more easily….get several opinions from those who have been shown to be willing to take a chance….and hope that they feel their skills will allow them to be of help. I think that even if I was told that it wasn’t a good idea…if I was sitting face to face with the surgeon in a consult, I think I would push back…..and tell them I was willing to take the risk if they were….that I believed in them. When I was at Mayo…my surgery really was pretty clear cut (pun intended), but the oncologist I saw first seemed somewhat reluctant to make the call to do surgery…at least that’s what it seemed. I told him at the beginning, I was diagnosed at home with CC and was there to have surgery. He did set up the surgical consult…and when we met up again, just before the consult….he said, “Well, you got your surgery.” I wasn’t quite sure what to make of that comment. But…just saying…I think somethings you have to push….gently and keep repeating.

    Another example…one not related to CC, but applicable to the discussion: When our first son was born at 29 weeks, he was born with no breathing or heartbeat. I had a fibroid tumor in my uterus the size of a volleyball…bigger than our 2#2oz baby. Due to a really horrible situation, where no one believed that I was in labor (even though I had been in the hospital for 3 days prior for preterm labor due to the tumor degenerating) no OB was in the hospital and no neonatologist. When the neonatologist arrived he didn’t have time to even scrub, so he told us later that he did all the procedures under non-sterile conditions and was sure he had compromised our baby’s lungs beyond the prematurity issues. However, he had been quicked told what the situation was……that we likely would never have more children due to the large tumor. So, he made the decision to go ahead and try to revive our son….and did. Unfortunately, our son did die of lung problems two days later…probably due to infection rather than prematurity. That said….I will be forever grateful to that doctor for giving us our son for two and a half days….days that changed our entire lives. He went against “standard practice”, which would have been to not do anything because he could do it under sterile conditions. Did he do harm….????….yes…..but the other choice was worse. We had our son for two days.

    Doctors will do what doctors will do….some will take the professionally safe route….and others will do something that makes them truly the great doctors. They won’t succeed all the time…..but they “try”.

    Just my story…and my opinion.

    OH…by the way….I had surgery at Mayo in 1978, 3 months after the birth and death of our first son, and had that huge tumor removed. One of the two top gyn surgeons in the world, located at Mayo, did the surgery, when our local doctors told us it wasn’t possible….I ‘d have a hysterectomy and we should start adoption proceedings. I found the surgeon myself and made the appt myself…and when we discussed it with the local doctors, they told us, “Oh yeah, we’ve heard of him…he’s supposed to be really good.” REALLY? They conveniently told me they didn’t know of ANYone who could do the surgery , except possibly their buddy at a local hospital, but when asked, they refused to say that he’d even done a similar surgery. We did go on to have another child, our son, Mike, and he has given us a grandson and another on the way. Life can be good, even after the bad. But, you have to push…and push hard sometimes to get what you want….and what you deserve. Even then, you still may not find it. We just got very lucky.

    Julie T.

    in reply to: End of cycle 22 #86233
    iowagirl
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    Hooray Chris…..stable is what we want to hear from you. Glad the port was a little better…but I still wonder if it did’t tip slightly and they’re getting the needle in slightly in the wrong place. My chemo nurses were certain they had gotten into the right place, but it was obviously not working. Eventually, every time, they wound up finding a way to hold that port over the skin by one nurse as the other put in the needle. When my port was removed, the IR guy who took it out said that it had moved and as bad as it was in the beginning, it was then in a worse position. They can move and tilt,…and the tilting is apparently what causes them the most trouble….tiling either up and down or sideways. It causes them to catch an edge instead of center with the needle.

    But oh….whatever the issue is…I”m so glad to hear that scan showed stable. You are a mircle, lady!!! HUGS!

    Julie T.

    in reply to: End of cycle 22 #86229
    iowagirl
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    Kris….I know that there’s a difference between the wonky port I had and yours, that has worked fine for 4 years. Because of the weird positioning of my port, they tended to get an edge of it, and that’s when it wouldn’t work right….couldn’t do a blood draw…no blood return….no matter what they did. One time, they even tipped me so far back, I thought I would soon be standing on my head. Anyway, they finally had to resort to withdrawing the needle, having one nurse hold the port in a better position and then re puncturing, sometimes up to 5 times, to finally get decent access. Even though yours has been working fine all this time, maybe they just didn’t get the needle quite right that particular time…maybe a little too much to the edge of the port. Just another thought.

    in reply to: I am a CC survivor! #86238
    iowagirl
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    Anne-Marie,

    First…welcome to the website and a bunch of some of the most compassionate/caring and knowledgable folks you will ever meet..cyberspace or elsewhere. I just sorry you had to find us in the first place.

    Second….I have to tell you how impressed I am with the fact that you dealt with the diagnosis and initial surgery without your immediate family there by your side. You are one tough lady!!!!!

    Then, to go through what you did once you were in Australia.!!!! ….having to push as hard as you did to find someone who would take you seriously….but basically diagnosing yourself and then finding a surgeon to do another resection….do you know how hard it is to convince surgeons to do a second resection for CC?……and dealing with your daughter’s wedding on top of everything. As if being mother of the bride isn’t enough stress by itself. Did I mention I think you are one tough lady?

    Please post again when you visit with your surgeon at the end of the month. We’ll all be here praying and cheering for you for good news.

    Julie T.

    in reply to: No chemo today #86109
    iowagirl
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    Lainy…,break out the chicken soup for Duke!!! We’ve got to pump him up a bit for next week.

    Julie T.

    in reply to: Coming to the end :-( #86081
    iowagirl
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    Please know that we are all here with you as you go through this. I’m so sorry that your dear dad has passed on, but like the others, I know there is comfort in seeing him go peacefully and knowing that he no longer is dealing with pain. Hugs and prayers.

    Julie t.

    in reply to: My Introduction #80239
    iowagirl
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    Matt…maybe that’s why the doctors don’t check my CA 19-9 any longer….since it didn’t register as abnormal from the get-go. Thanks for the additional info about yours. That makes me feel a bit better that it isn’t something they’re forgetting about.

    Julie

    in reply to: My Introduction #80237
    iowagirl
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    Matt, Darn…wish that we were more coordinated with our checkup appointments. My next one will probably be late Feb or into early March, depending on when they make the appointment and how weather cooperates for travel. My one year anniversary of surgical resection with clear margins will be Feb 28th this year…a month behind you. I’m quite sure that in another several weeks, I’ll be having some anxiety creep in also. However, today, I had an MRI done here at home, due to a back problem….so I asked them if while they were reading the MRI….if they’d be sure to watch out for anything unusual that could be CC mets. They assured me that they look for anything out of order…..but….I figured that unless I mentioned iit, they might pass off something as not significant to my back problem. This wasn’t done with contrast, so I don’t know how much they’ll be able to see of the type of stuff associated with CC. My main concern at the moment is getting my back issue (which has been on-going since the diagnostic process for CC back in early Feb 2014) diagnosed and fixed if possible. How nice to have something besides CC be my main medical concern. Go figure!

    I’ll have a meeting later this week, with blood labs with my local oncologist who oversaw the chemo. I must ask about the CA 19-9. That has never been drawn again since before diagnosis that one time. It was negative then…so maybe that’s why they don’t rerun it. But, I figure if the CC comes back…it’s possible that a new location might run up the CA 19-9??????? Dunno! As I said…I need to ask. In fact, all of my blood counts were in the normal range before diagnosis….so the blood labs really only have shown issues that the chemo caused. Are you getting the CA 19-9….and was it elevated when you were diagnosed? I can’t remember right now and haven’t looked back on your messages….easier to ask you again. :)))

    Pretty much with you on the scan anxiety….fine for a month or two afterward…and then it builds until the next scan. Except, this last one was done the day after Thanksgiving, and I have to say I had a hard time with the lead up to Christmas…..very weepy for no apparent reason…and the smallest things would set it off. I still tried and did enjoy the holidays a lot…..so I can’t say it was bad…but there was definitely something amiss. Once Christmas and New Years was over, things seemed to lighten up some. I have many good and happy memories of Christmas 2014 to look back on…….how can I not…..I have a 3 and a half year old grandson and another on the way. Life is indeed good.

    I’m so pleased for you…..and hope to hear back great news from your end of January scan. Will be watching for your post. Happy Anniversary!!!!!

    Julie T.

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