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OR, it could something totally different related to her condition. Always should be reported to the dr or nurse who is in charge of her care.

Senaida, even though I am on the front end of this and not the back end, I have enough experience with “not feeling good” to know that I do the same kinds of things when I don’t feel good. I get cranky, want to be left alone, I want things a certain way, I get upset when things are not where they are supposed to be………every little thing becomes an emotional “big thing”. I fight really hard to not be this way, but it is just your mind trying to come to terms with the way the body is feeling. The only thing you can do is just to keep smiling and keep loving and serving any way you can (that won’t upset her, of course).

Perhaps “brightness” represents the opposite of how she feels, so she wants no part of it. Ask her if she is in pain. If so, see if she is willing to take the meds necessary to alleviate it. I know I get the “crankiest” when I am hurting.

All my love goes out to you, abuela and your son. Keep smiling…..she needs it.

cnicholls, you are absolutely not overreacting. Those feelings are totally normal. I would worry more if you didn’t have those feelings. I was told the ugly “C” word 6 weeks ago and for a while I was devastated, mortified, and truly sick to my stomach. I confirm wholly that I was not worried the least bit about my personal situation or health. My only worry was for my wife, children, grandchildren, etc. I knew my absence would devastate them. So then, after staring at my granddaughter and lying on the bed and crying, I decided I was going to be the strongest me I could be. I was going to move heaven and “heck” to become informed, learn everything I could, and thoroughly knock this beast on it’s backside. The road has been a lot smoother for me ever since. Finding this website has also played a tremendous roll in smoothing things as well.
I truly feel your pain and anguish and am glad you are here. Welcome, my friend, and stay with us. Let us know how we may help or how we may direct you. There are so many on this site who are so knowledgeable. I remember doing the google search thing, seeing the stats and being totally frightened. Then I realized, those state are 5 or 6 years old, and even if the percentage was 1, I was going to be in that 1 percent. Many here will tell you that the numbers don’t count.

Let’s take this journey together. We can do it.

Pepe, you let your dad know that we are thinking of him and offer our prayers and our best.

Way to go, Kathy. Great news.

Lainy, what you are is…….as singer Robert Palmer put it, “Addicted to Love”.

Amy,

I am only a couple of years behind you and the “grandchild” thought is one of the biggest motivator for me. I do have 6 beautiful grandchildren. The youngest, 9 months, lives in my home. One day, shortly after being diagnosed with cancer, I just stared at her for a few moments, then went to my bed where I laid down and cried. Afterwards was the moment I really decided there was no more room for tears. I was going to move heaven and earth to have lots more time with my sweet grandchildren and my thoughts were to be nothing but positive. Every now and then I have to remind myself but it just takes one little peek at that 9 month old just beginning to crawl and I’m “in the program” all over again.

Just have to beat it.

-Byron

Elsie, all our love and support to you and your companion. My “supposed” tumor in my liver is”VERY” undefined, so much so that they have not officially diagnosed me as CC. However, I know and my surgeon very much supposed that CC is the devil with me. The tumor is small so that the scans cannot really show anything definite, but it has gone to my lymph nodes. My only saving grace is that the biopsy of the lymph nodes showed slow growers. I pray that you will find the best help in the treatment of your partner and stay with us here. The emotional help here is second to none.

Byron