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  • in reply to: Feeling down right now #21305
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    Dear Patty, I am so sorry that you have lost your mom. I am just so sad for you. I lost my mom in 2005 from cancer, and I still think about her everyday. I hope you have family to comfort you, but it still is not easy, is it?

    Christina and Patty, what generous offers to give me your Xeloda. What wonderful women you must be.

    I have just found out that Blue Cross will make a one time override with Walgreen’s so I can get the drug today. Now the problem is that nobody has any 150 mg. pills of Xeloda. I need 1300 mgs. in the morning and 1300 at night. The pharmacist said he would call pharmacies in other cities to check so I am waiting for a call from him, and I will drive somewhere else if I can get it. After this prescription is filled, I will have to go through mail order as you all suggested.

    Thank you all for your information, concern and encouragement. I always feel overwhelmed by the compassion on these posts.

    My prayers for you,
    Sophie

    in reply to: Completely Oddball Question (from a Complete Oddball) #21233
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    Hey, I might as well add my (ahem) voluptuous structure. I have always been really really overweight but quite active. I had a CAT scan in late 2005 and it was normal. Then the CAT scan in early March 2008 showed cc on 75% of my liver. Who knows when it started growing after the 2005 CAT scan so I don’t know if it’s fast or slow. Since April 2008 I have lost 50 pounds. The past 7 or 8 weeks I have maintained ..up a pound…down a pound.

    Prayers for you all,
    Sophie

    in reply to: Dad has cc #21166
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    The thoughts when one loses a beloved parent are so frightening, Jolene. I pray God gives you courage to get through this, and peace and ease of suffering for your family. Right now so many are grieving with you as well as praying for you and your family.

    Sophie

    in reply to: Mom just diagnosed #21133
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    Dear Wests, so sorry for you and your family.

    I started out with the nausea too which finally forced me to go to the doctor. My labwork was good but was eventually diagnosed with cc. City of Hope did a portal vein embolization on me with the intention of getting my left lobe to regenerate and then doing a resection. Unfortunately they couldn’t do the resection, but I do believe the portal vein embolization eliminated the nausea and kept me from being jaundiced. In addition, the doctor did say it might have caused the tumor to shrink a bit. I have a large tumor..over eleven cms. The oncologist needs to refer your loved one to a good liver surgeon. There might be options out there for you..take her home; we can’t do anything is not an option with this initial diagnosis.

    Best wishes and prayers

    Sophie

    in reply to: My Report Card(CT Results) #21088
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    Hey Jeff,

    I WANT MY OWN PERSONAL JEFF! Hang in there! All teachers KNOW that a less than favorable report card can jet up there to an A report card, and that’s what I’m praying for for you.

    I’m up here at Truckee enjoying the last 2 days of my little vacation, and my daughter told me that if I was a bird I’d be a blue jay because they are so feisty and always in the mix….stirring it up and cranky with each other. And your mother-in-law said to keep your pecker up. I had to really laugh at that one. I’m a blue jay, and you’re walking around with a continual erection. I can’t even believe I’m having this conversation, but I need to make myself laugh.

    I was reading a book over the weekend (actually a Brian Jacques book) and the character said, “As long as there is life, there is hope.” I’m clinging to that one.

    You and all the others on this site continually remain in my prayers.

    Sophie

    in reply to: Short update to anyone who cares #21009
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    Belle,

    I am heartbroken for the grief your family shares because of your sister’s cancer. May God wrap his arms around all of you and give you some comfort. I pray that your sister’s suffering eases.

    Sophie

    in reply to: Second Opinion, Worse News #20995
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    Boy Irene…strength! Isn’t that the key word? I just got back from City of Hope today after a consultation from a radiation oncologist. Resection at this time is not possible for me and may never be. After listening to him about the Sirtex microspheres treatment, I decided I would go with the Gemzar/Xeloda chemotherapy and pray it shrinks my tumor enough that a resection might be possible in the future. I have a very large tumor, but I would have been able to have it resected if they hadn’t found sirrhosis caused by a genetic predisposition or NASH. If a chemo cocktail could shrink your tumor, then resection is the gold standard. It’s what everyone prays for, and you are young and strong!!!! Also the chemo, I would think, is helping the cancer not to spread. I’ve only been to City of Hope and have seen my own oncologist, an oncologist liver surgeon and now this radiation oncologist. I decided if they can shrink the tumor, I’m going to check out Stanford for a surgical second opinion. Keep plugging away, Irene. The people on this website keep me going. Every time I get down and decide there isn’t anything left for me to do, someone says something that makes me try again. My chemo treatment starts a week from tomorrow so I’m going to visit my niece in Truckee tomorrow for a little vacation before I start the treatment.

    My prayers and best wishes for you,
    Sophie

    in reply to: Better off dead??? #20975
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    Dear Carol,

    Your post just absolutely broke my heart because I can so empathize with you. It just beats one down to fight the insurance company when one is already struggling with so much. I don’t think Charlie is alone when at a really down point the thought of the family being better off without him surfaces. I believe it hits us all, but when he looks at your face, Carol, and the faces of his children and realizes how much you all love him and need him, hopefully it will give him heart to shake his fist at this horrible disease.

    I pray God wraps his arms around your family and comforts you and that there is a turn for the better..that something happens to buoy you and Charlie up.

    My prayers for you, Carol and Charlie

    Sophie

    in reply to: Miracle Man #20624
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    Hello everyone, I finally heard from the surgeon, and this is what he says,

    “We have tentatively agreed on sirtex or chemoembolization. We first need to determine whether sirtex can be done if portal vein embolization has been performed. If no, then we will perform chemoembo.”

    The right lobe of my liver has some of the blood flow cut off because of portal vein embolization. This was to cause the left lobe to regenerate, but it didn’t.

    I truly don’t know what to do or ask anymore. Has anybody had portal vein embolization? If it doesn’t work, doesn’t it seem like they could remove the material that shut down the blood supply and then try sirtex?

    I have read some posts here that chemoembolization might not be beneficial. Any suggestions that might help me make a decision? Thank you.

    Prayers for you all,
    Sophie

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    Thank you Jeff and Marion,

    I will see the oncologist, Jeff, and I just typed a list of some of your suggestions as questions for the surgeon when he calls. I am praying he will call before I go to my oncologist on Monday.

    I also found out how to get all my scans from City of Hope so I’ll do that in the morning.
    For me, I need to be more positive like all of you. I am so emotional that all I do is cry, and I know that isn’t good. I have always been a person who cries easily, but the past 5 months that’s all I do. I keep thinking, “where do these people get their strength and their joy in each day?” I want that, but I can’t seem to get it. I live by myself with no family around here. My niece is 500 miles away, and my daughter 200 miles away. Both have been wonderful about being with me whenever they can, but they don’t have the option to drop everything and move in with me. They have been wonderful about getting down here as much as they have. I know I feel sorry for myself too much and make excuses. Thank you for propping me up, you guys. Were you guys always so positive from the beginning? Do you think I can get to the point where I can laugh and enjoy my day? I want to laugh again instead of staring blankly at people. I’m sorry. I’m starting to vent now, and this certainly isn’t what people new to the site need to see. I won’t do it again.

    My love and prayers to all of you,
    Sophie

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    Hello everyone, I’m waiting to hear from my surgeon about what the next step is or if he has a plan. He told me he’d call me, but no call yet.

    First though, Wabals, I’m so glad your husband was able to have the resection. I was unable to have mine. I was thinking about him and praying he could have his. His was supposed to be the day after mine, I believe.

    I have a question. Now that the surgeon has determined I can’t have surgery and I am kind of out there in the wind, (I have an appt. with the oncologist next Monday.) Should I listen to what the oncologist has to say or should I go for a second opinion now? And who do I go to? Another oncologist? A surgeon? I’ve read that many of you have sent your scans and information to other hospitals for second opinions. I’m just at a loss of what to do next….so confused.

    Love and best wishes to all of you,
    Sophie

    in reply to: Liver Resection a “No Go” – Feeling pretty down #20819
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    Thank you, everyone, for responding with your heartfelt feelings – You all understand what I’m going through, and I cry with you or feel joy for you every time I get on this site. Thank you so much for your prayers and encouragement.

    My surgeon didn’t call today so I don’t know if the ascites biopsy is back or not….a long weekend again. If a person has ascites once, does that mean a turn for the worse and that there will be more and more fluid?

    Today I’m trying to put on a happy face for my daughter because she is leaving on Monday. My happy face is actually a little scary.

    I always ask God to wrap his arms around me and give me some peace, and it helps so I wish that for you all too.

    Love,
    Sophie

    in reply to: God is good. #20698
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    Dear Wabals,

    Your husband is scheduled for surgery one day after mine. He and your family are in my prayers. I can imagine the pendulum of emotions you have right now because my family has been on a roller coaster the past few days. I hope your husband wakes up to smiling faces and wonderful news. I just keep imagining waking up to my daughter’s smiling face and her saying, “Mom, the surgery went great, and it’s gone”.

    Sophie

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    Hello Irene,

    Before I went to the doctor I was nauseous and felt bloated. There wasn’t much I could eat, and this lasted about 2 months. The labwork came back great, and my liver enzymes were just fine; however, doctor did order a CAT scan which showed cancer in liver. I had a PET Scan and a biopsy. The biopsy pretty much confirms cancer, and my pathology was sent to at least 3 hospitals before cc was diagnosed. How big is your tumor? That might explain why you have no symptoms. This may have been caught very very early. Are you being treated by your general practitioner or have you gone to a comprehensive cancer hospital? My liver specialist said my best option was the portal vein embolization which is what your doctor wants for you. As you said, that shuts down the blood supply in one lobe or part of the liver and hopefully the other part will regenerate. It can regenerate as fast as 2 weeks. I do know the liver regenerates fairly speedily. When you have this done, you will be heavily sedated, but you must be able to respond to any questions asked by the radiologist so you won’t be “out”. For me, after it was done, I didn’t suffer any pain from it or notice anything different as far as shutting down the blood flow to the liver. The portal vein embolization caused no problems for me. Both the surgeon and oncologist wanted me to have chemo and wanted to give the liver about 3 months to regenerate. My tumor is very large though so that’s why I had to have chemo. At this point, I am scheduled for a liver resection July 7th. Both of us are fortunate we have the option to have liver resection because that is supposed to be the gold standard. As for what you can do after the portal vein embolization, if you have no symptoms, you can go on and live just like you do now and get done whatever you want. I had to take a medical leave because I taught junior high and my anxiety and physical symptoms made it far too stressful to continue. My prayers are with you, Irene.
    Sophie

    in reply to: Resection surgery is a “go” #20592
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    This is for both Joyces.

    Dear Joyce and Joyce,

    Thank you so much for your words of encouragement, ladies. I have pretty much just read posts instead of replying, but I am going to start replying more because it’s so heartening to have responses like yours, and I need to add my words of encouragement to others. And if there is good news, it should be shared because it does help others. If the news isn’t so good, then there are so many wonderful people like you with kind words and prayers.

    Good luck to Butch and his forthcoming surgery. My prayers and good wishes for success.

    Sophie

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